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Hi, my name's N and I come from Europe. I'm a busy student and when I'm not chasing deadlines at University, I love to take photos, cook and enjoy in little things that everyday life brings. My 'diet' consists of design, architecture, literature, movies, fashion, good food and wine. This visual diary is a mélange of things I find inspiring and aesthetically pleasing, other than that, this tumblr's existence has no higher purpose... Thank you for stopping by! :)

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I would just like to press pause right now and postpone tomorrow for a week or so, so that I can recharge my batteries. I’m so fucking tired.

Today…

- I’ve been awake for 38 hours,

- had a deadline in the afternoon,

- drank 1,5 litres of black tea,

- I only I ate 2 hard boiled eggs and a little bit of pain au chocolat during the day,

- after I handed in my project I took my dogs for a nice long walk and after that went to the gym with my friend -> the best part of the day, tbh,

- it was sunny outside so the light in our studio was especially charming.

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I’m sorry for my absence.

I’ll resume posting normally soon, I had to study, classes have started again and I have a major critique on Friday. I’m already nervous because I’m a little late with all the floor plans and sections.


today was a good day

- slept for 12 hours,

- waited tables for 8 hours (not exactly pleasant because I work for free since it’s a family owned place and I’m the only girl in the family- let’s ignore how sexist is that- but my co-workers are cool and funny),

- had a nice lunch and a walk with my grandmother,

- went for a good run,

- listened to a lot of this,

- and now I’m going to read this until I fall asleep (I hope I’ll be able to put it down and not read until dawn because I have to wake up really early tomorrow)

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1. Favourite food?

I like simple food like hard boiled eggs, green bananas, grapes, smoked salmon and canned sardines. And chocolate, of course :D

4. Biggest turn-ons and turn-offs and what do you first notice when meeting a new person?

There are no specific things I could point out. If I like someone, I’ll like him or her intuitively from a moment we meet. The first thing I notice…Colour and intonation of a person’s voice, how they articulate words and such. 

6. Who do you trust the most?

My instincts, I should rely on them more because I normally trust my brain too much. But if I need a second opinion I’ll ask my mother because we rarely agree and I get an opinion from a totally different perspective, which is great.

30. Hardest thing you’ve ever done?

I have no idea… Perhaps being awake for more than 48 hours straight? I have nothing impressive to say really.

Asked by studio-md

Gracias!

46. Three words that describe you:

Honest, curious, sensible.

54. Write 5 interesting facts about yourself.

1. Sometimes I wear mismatched socks.

2. I play violin in symphony orchestra.

3. I used to be a show jumper.

4. I don’t like ice cream.

5. I prefer winter over all other seasons, but lack of sun is killing me.

3. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad?

Making me happy:

A good workout or a long run; quiet mornings when I don’t have to rush anywhere, good food and taking long walks with my dogs in the woods.

Making me sad:

Abandoned animals, homophobia, unequalness.

20. Your favourite books?

Illiad, Homer

Romancero Gitano, Frederico García Lorca

Metamorphosis, Ovidius,

Pesar todo, Juan Gelman 

The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera

Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer

I also love Pablo Neruda, Reinaldo Arenas, Fyodor Tyutchev, Ian McEwan, basically I could go on and on and on.

27. Which animal are you most like?

I can’t settle just for one, so let’s mix together fieriness of a horse, independence of a cat and loyalty of a dog.

54. Write 5 interesting facts about yourself.

1. It’s my birthday today.

2. I’m ambidextrous.

3. I can sleep anywhere and at any time.

4. I can’t park a car well.

5. I never wear jeans and I don’t own a single pair.

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21. Your favourite films?

Biutiful (2010)

Jamón Jamón (1992)

La vita e bella (1997)

The Pianist (2002)

Le fabuleux destin d’Amélie Poulain (2001)

The Dreamers (2003)

Closer (2004)

Wes Anderson movies

Xavier Dolan movies

The Thin Red Line (1998)

The Deer Hunter (1978)

Babel (2006)

Before Night Falls (2000)

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (2007)

21 Grams (2003)

The Piano (1993)

Mar adentro (2004)

Where the Wild Things Are (2009)

Shame (2011)

Those are some of the movies that I can come up with right now…

24. Museum or disco?

Museums, always. But if I’m drunk enough, I’ll let my friends drag me there and dance our butts off like monkeys. Baboons actually, I mean baboons :D (google baboon dance for reference)

53. Talk about where you’d like to be in 10 years.

I’d like to be, first and foremost, satisfied with who I’ve become. 

I’d like to have a job that pays the rent and is not a burden.

I’d like to try living in another country, probably somewhere in Scandinavia. 

Plus, I hope that I’ll finally know what I’d like to do in life and be able to do this for a living.

Sorry for the grumpy face.
(photo from a while back, when I had to go to a party as a plus one. I was thinking about going home, change to pyjamas and order pizza for the whole evening. Had to make it black and white, because I’m so pale I match the fucking door).

p.s. It seems like I’m gigantic. I’m not, I promise. 
p.p.s. Quality of this photo indicates that it was taken with a potato instead of a camera.

Sorry for the grumpy face.

(photo from a while back, when I had to go to a party as a plus one. I was thinking about going home, change to pyjamas and order pizza for the whole evening. Had to make it black and white, because I’m so pale I match the fucking door).

p.s. It seems like I’m gigantic. I’m not, I promise. 

p.p.s. Quality of this photo indicates that it was taken with a potato instead of a camera.

Things to look forward to (now that we got snow):

- Winter Olympics,

- hockey and skiing and skiing and hockey,

- perhaps going cross-country skiing with my dad,

- planning my exam season based on Olympic’s schedule,

- cheering for my favourite guys: Aksel, Bode and Ivo,

- going ice skating with friends after class,

- hiking,

- bellow zero temperatures,

- warm tea and finally breaking in my new winter boots.

This little fella’ beats all the street style fashion right now. Look at his crisp white button-down and that bicorne! ;)

Today was a good day.

It was sunny and my grandmother finally came home from a hospital.

On being told that you’re no good… [ a very personal post ]

Last week I got mail that as one of the highest ranking students in my country I’m entitled to a scholarship for gifted students. And a few months ago I also got mail that I got an intern scholarship at an architecture/engineering firm.

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Why am I bragging about this?

Well, here’s the thing: For the vast majority of my life I was being told that I’m stupid by almost every teacher in my primary and high school. I was told that I’ll never pass my baccalaureate, a levels or whatever you wish to call it. I was bullied and as a consequence I even started bullying back, because I thought they might leave me alone. Teachers insulted me in front of class, I frequently ran away from school and they made me feel like there are people who deserve to be on this planet and people who don’t and I was one of those. School was total hell.

My family didn’t really help either. They’re smart, educated people, but not a single person bothered to tell me that art is OK, that music is OK, that it’s fine if you love reading books. I felt worthless, like a complete failure. I understand that keeping up with a kid that never listens, that is living in it’s own world is difficult, but that does not justify such reaction. At the same time, people go through a lot more in their lives, they are discriminated, lose loved ones, limbs, live in poverty or fall ill. But I swear that insults and constant rejection felt like a chronic disease accompanying me everywhere. 

Truth is, I have trouble understanding math, because I think in pictures and sounds. You would assume that I’m autistic or something- but I’m not, it’s normal and a lot of people think this way. It’s just that abstract thinking that physics and calculus require is hard for such people. I remember when I came home from school with a bad grade, my dad threw all my things on the floor, he was screaming, raging like it’s the worst thing in life that can happen to a person.

Ironically enough, he was the one who opened my mail. He read out loud that you have to collect 5 points from international competitions, studies or academic achievements in the span of 2 years to be an eligible candidate for this particular scholarship. I have 10 of those points. Fuck, I feel like Harry Potter receiving letter from Hogwarts. 

It also happens that I have ADD and mild dyslexia, but nevertheless I made it to University without any therapy, handed in thesis papers at age 20 and last year I graduated with highest grade as one of the youngest students at my Faculty. 

Today I’m no longer angry at my former teachers and I no longer feel like I don’t deserve to be here. I am continuing my studies and I’m pleased with where I am right now, plus, I grew up as a nice person which I’m the most proud of.

Perhaps someone who is struggling through school system will read this, it’s dedicated to whoever was insulted, bullied or being told that they’re not good enough. Thinking in a different way is not a sign of lower IQ, be whoever the fuck you are. Be stubborn! Keep your head up, find something that you’re good at and stick to it, let no one crush your dreams. I also wrote it for all the people who make others feel bad because they act, think or look differently. Please, dear people of this planet, let’s just accept each other as we are.

- N. 

p.s. As a reward, I went to Berlin. It was lovely. The rest will go to savings account.

p.p.s. I’ll continue donating to local animal shelters monthly. 

p.p.p.s I was thinking a lot whether to post something so personal on-line or not. I might get mocked because a lot of people in real life know about this tumblr. Well fuck it, here it is.

Um… Got bored with my current haircut and after a few tutorials on youtube I’ve decided to cut it on my own. Turned out quite okay! And even if it wouldn’t- it’s just hair, right :D
p.s. Although my hairdresser will probably kill me when he sees what I’ve done)

Um… Got bored with my current haircut and after a few tutorials on youtube I’ve decided to cut it on my own. Turned out quite okay! And even if it wouldn’t- it’s just hair, right :D

p.s. Although my hairdresser will probably kill me when he sees what I’ve done)

Last couple of weeks summarized in a few words:

Studying

Nietzsche

Black tea

No sleep

Sleep for 18 hours straight

Going mental

No sleep

Books

Diderot

Blazac

Green tea

More studying

Weird feeling in my gut

Heart beating like crazy

Life has been so good lately. The heat wave is over and lovely windy weather is back. Had lots of nice dinners, good wine, good conversations… Good people, that make me feel understood. Although I spend days studying, evenings are still pretty warm, so long walks are especially enjoyable.

“I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point “If this isn’t nice I don’t know what is.”

- Kurt Vonnegut